Abject Terror

Baby Shower!!!

Sun, 07 Aug 2011 13:48:20 +0100

In a few weeks we get to have our shower, sooooo excited. AuntHK is organising so you know it’s going to be planned down to the finest detail. And full the to brim of adorableness, retroness, babynees and of course, awesomeness!

Oh Joy. Leaking. :/

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 20:26:00 +0100

Oh Joy. Leaking. :/

Cuteness!

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 20:19:47 +0100

Cuteness!

This little piggy went to market...

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 20:18:19 +0100

This little piggy went to market...

Movement!

Sun, 12 Jun 2011 08:46:40 +0100

I think. Maybe.

I’m currently 17 weeks +4 and for the last week or so I’ve been feeling a strange ‘bubble’ move across my abdomen when I’m sitting down for a while.

Everyone says “It feels just like gas at first”. Sorry, but I’ve never had gas at the front. That seems a little unhealthy to be honest :/

Heard the baby’s heart beat at the midwives on Wednesday. And lots of extra thumps which apparently mean it’s kicking like a crazy thing.

Also struggling to sleep, oh joy, as if sleep-deprivation post-baby isn’t enough torture

-.-

Ah well, back to devouring fruit mentos.

14 weeks and two days

Thu, 19 May 2011 21:27:21 +0100

So I’ve had my first scan and it was the strangest thing I’ve ever experienced. I was so nervous before we went in, like I was going to a job interview or something. The nurse performing the ultrasound didn’t seem very friendly at first, but once the machine was running and my abdomen was covered in goo she warmed up a bit.

I really don’t know how to describe seeing my baby up on that screen for the first time. He or she was all curled up, hands by its face squeezing open and shut. Part of me wanted to cry, but I ended up laughing. I can feel tears welling up just thinking about it, which makes me feel daft.

I think it really made me realise how real the baby is now, there’s no denying it’s there! I don’t think I feel like a mum yet, but I definitely feel different.

Pregnancy survey (that I stole from Bumpalump)

Fri, 29 Apr 2011 16:20:31 +0100

MOTHER

Name: E

Age: 21

Birthday: 22nd Feb

Birth Place: Cardiff UK

Height: 5’6”

Weight gained so far: About 6 pounds

Location: Bristol UK

FATHER

Name: T

Age: 20

Birthday: 29th March

Birthplace: Portsmouth UK

Height: 5’11”

Location: Bristol UK

RELATIONSHIP STATUS

Are you with the baby’s father?: Yes

Are you married?: No

If together, how long have you been together?: Since July 2010

FIRSTS

Is this your first pregnancy?: Yes.

How did you find out you were pregnant?: My boyfriend’s sister made me do a test because my boobs hurt, but I didn’t trust the faint line. When my period was late I took another test at work.

What kind of pregnancy test did you take?: A 99p one from the bargain shop!

How many?: Two at home, one with a nurse

What were your first symptoms?: Burping, incredibly sore breasts and just a sense that I sort of knew.

Who did you tell first?: Tim when I saw him.

Who was with you when you found out?: A work colleague bumped into me as I came out of the bathroom with the test.

Was baby planned?: No

When was baby conceived? Between the 24th and 28th of Feb

When was your first appointment?: I had a midwife appointment on the 20th of April

How far were you when you found out?: 3 weeks and a bit

REACTIONS

What was your reaction?: Terrified. Too numb to cry or be happy. Just in an emotionless bubble.

What was the baby’s father’s reaction?: Not exactly surprised. Certainly happier than I was.

What was the parent’s reactions?: Shocked, a little disappointed, grudginly accepting (On his side). Pleased/surprised on mine.

What was friends and family reactions?: Generally positive. Some people are worried for us.

BABY

Due date: 19th November (ish)

Do you want to know the sex?: Not especially but the dad does.

Do you know the sex?: Nope

If so, boy or girl?:

Any names?: Milla for a girl, maybe Luc for a boy. Still in negotiations.

Any ultrasounds?: Waiting for a date

Have you heard the heartbeat?: No

Baby ethnicity?: White

Who do you think baby will look like?: Large-nosed but hopefully cute

Will baby have any siblings?: Not yet

Will baby have their own room?: Not at first, we house share at the moment so baby has a corner of our room.

What is baby’s nursery theme?: Cute? Cuddly? Slightly wonky and hand-made?

Have you and dad felt baby move?: No, a bit too early for that

LABOUR

Who is your OB/GYN?: I just have a midwife currently

What hospital will you deliver in?: My home

Who will be in the delivery room?: The dad, maybe my mum and his sister. Anyone who’d like to be part of it really.

Will you use medication?: Hopefully not, fingers crossed that TENS and willpower will be enough

Are you scared about labor?: Hell yes, but i deal with it when it comes around.

Will you videotape or take pictures?: Maybe a pic once it’s out, otherwise yuck no.

How will you react when you see baby?: Nod tiredly and fall asleep?

What will you say?: “OWWWWWWWW” and then maybe “mfgomrt hello baby nchohwh”

MISCELLANEOUS

Did you have morning sickness?: Been sick three times, intermitent nausea for the last 4 weeks

Did you have any cravings?: Pizza, anything vinegar-y, spicy noodles. Actually, spicy anything

Did you have any mood swings?: Some

Are you a high risk pregnancy?: Not as far as I know

Any complications?: Not yet

Formula or breastfeeding?: Breastfeeding even if it’s uncomfortable

Have you bought anything for baby yet?: No, still too worried to.

When did you start to show?: I doubt I’ll show for a good while as I already have a bit of a belly

How long could you wear your regular clothes?: I should think until the end of June maybe?

Are you excited?: Yeah, still scared though.

Who will help with baby after their born?: The dad is going to take some time off work for the first few weeks, and our house mates (his sister and her BF) have both offered to help out. And my mum’s said she’ll come over to Bristol to make sure I’m moving around and excercising gently.

What is your favorite thing about being pregnant?: That I’m finally doing something worth while.

What is the worst thing about being pregnant?: Sooooo sleepy, and soooo hungry

What one thing do you miss doing since being pregnant?: Drinking, which is weird since I never drank that much before :/

Any days you wish you weren’t pregnant?: Not yet

Are you ready for baby? A few weeks ago I would have said no, but I’m working on my fitness and staying relaxed and since my partner and I just got better jobs we might be ok for money as well.

Do you have insurance?: Three letters, NHS

How many kids do you want?: I’d like three or four, but I wont be having another one for a few years

Do you talk to your baby?: Yes

Do you have stretch marks?: Yes, from my yo-yo weight

Do you still feel attractive?: No more or less so than before I was pregnant.

Have you had your baby shower yet?: Not yet, it’s mainly going to be a little party so I can see all my family before baby turns me into a hermit

Any weird dreams?: Yeah, had a nightmare about a scorpion and made my boyfriend wake up and search the bed while I cowered in the en-suite. Also had some other dreams, but I’m not about to share them :P

Are you taking any classes?: Not yet, too early

Do you like kids?: I will like my child, other peoples are debatable.

Reading anything?: Yes, a natural pregnancy book and a couple of different blogs.

How many pregnant women do you know?: One other than myself at the moment

How far along are you now?: 10 + 6

FAMILY

Do you have god parents picked out?: Not christening the child as I’m not a Christian

If so, who?:

Grandparents?: My mum and step-dad, my dad and step-mum, his mum and step-dad, his dad and step-mum.

Great grandparents?: 7 on my side, 3 (I think) on his

Aunts?: Two

Uncles?: One by blood, one friend “uncle”

So, I got offered a promotion at work after working my butt off at an internal interview. I accepted...

Fri, 29 Apr 2011 15:28:39 +0100

So, I got offered a promotion at work after working my butt off at an internal interview. I accepted but I now have the issue of how and when to bring up the little alien growing inside me. I’m sure they’ll be fine with it but I feel bad that they’ll be putting effort into training me up and only getting another 28 weeks or so out of me!

Grrrrarg, midwives left 3 voicemails while I was working to say they wanted to change my...

Mon, 18 Apr 2011 11:39:07 +0100

Grrrrarg, midwives left 3 voicemails while I was working to say they wanted to change my appointment. Now I’m not working and they haven’t called once!

The baby’s section of our room will look a little like...

Thu, 14 Apr 2011 18:15:56 +0100

The baby’s section of our room will look a little like this. Tiny and jumbed and wonderful.

Finally managed to get a hold of the midwives I needed to register with. Only took three fricken...

Thu, 14 Apr 2011 16:54:56 +0100

Finally managed to get a hold of the midwives I needed to register with. Only took three fricken days. So reassuring for when labour comes around -.-

Went to Wok to Walk for lunch today and had me some noodles. Theywereomgsogood. Wish I had a little...

Fri, 08 Apr 2011 17:50:14 +0100

Went to Wok to Walk for lunch today and had me some noodles. Theywereomgsogood. Wish I had a little chef to live in my house and cook me things on a whim. Right now it would be umeboshi onigiri. Nom.

Must get out of the habit of not eating because I feel nauseous and then pigging out when I do eat....

Wed, 06 Apr 2011 20:09:54 +0100

Must get out of the habit of not eating because I feel nauseous and then pigging out when I do eat. My stomach is not loving me right now.

I can smell cheese and it’s making me SO darn hungry. Giant knicker shopping with my mum on...

Tue, 05 Apr 2011 18:39:40 +0100

I can smell cheese and it’s making me SO darn hungry.

Giant knicker shopping with my mum on Friday followed by noodles with my 2nd best friend.

My dad took things very well, now I just have to wait to hear how the Daddy’s family take it :/

robot-heart: (via So Much Sweetness | Baby Shower...

Mon, 04 Apr 2011 19:00:01 +0100

robot-heart:

(via So Much Sweetness | Baby Shower Photography » Simply Bloom Photography | Destination Weddings | Santa Barbara | New York | Los Angeles | Huntsville)

Aunty, baby is telling me it wants this at its shower please.

Ugh, morning sickness has landed. Managing to keep the actual throwing up part at bay with...

Sun, 03 Apr 2011 10:05:00 +0100

Ugh, morning sickness has landed. Managing to keep the actual throwing up part at bay with techniques I’ve developed over the years. Just because I’ve not been pregnant before doesn’t mean I’ve ever enjoyed being sick :P

Telling my Dad today, over the phone unfortunately as he’s away for work. But if I don’t tell him now he’s going to be more upset that I kept him out of the loop than over the fact I’m pregnant.

He’ll then tell my sister. That should be… interesting.

Oh, and my mum’s getting in on the blog action over here

Staying away from home for work is killing me. I hate travelling, I hate sleeping in a bed...

Thu, 31 Mar 2011 20:28:17 +0100

Staying away from home for work is killing me. I hate travelling, I hate sleeping in a bed that’s not mine, and I hate feeling so different inside with nothing to show to anyone else yet.

How can I get people to understand that my entire world is changing when to them I’m still the same frumpy thing?

So emotional and argumentive and scared. I hate this.

Thu, 24 Mar 2011 18:05:10 +0000

So emotional and argumentive and scared. I hate this.

Told my mum, went surprisingly well, didn’t have to use any of my “I’m an adult...

Thu, 24 Mar 2011 13:32:28 +0000

Told my mum, went surprisingly well, didn’t have to use any of my “I’m an adult now” speeches. Very relieved.

One down, one to go.

aunthk: The mumma tells her mum today. Good luck! Jean-Luc and I are crossing our fingers and...

Wed, 23 Mar 2011 09:32:16 +0000

aunthk:

The mumma tells her mum today. Good luck! Jean-Luc and I are crossing our fingers and toes.

Does he have fingers and toes yet?

Not quite, only just forming arms and legs this week!